Okay, so i don't know if you all forgot or what, but my preparation day is on Monday here in the MTC, Megan's is on Wed. Apparently you all forgot because there was zero e-mails in my e-mail today. I got the picture of mason which was very cute and then Megan's e-mail. Ya I will just let that sink in for a little bit for you all. You what is super weird is that on my way to go check my e-mails I turned to Sister Farley and was like "What if I don't have any e-mails?" and she just laughed and said "of course you will". I guess the Lord was preparing me. But that is okay because I got some mail this week as well as a package, it was so awesome!!!
So this week has been super up and down for me. Days where I feel so strong and then other days where I think that I am a better missionary than I feel. I have grown really close with one of the sisters that is in my residence, who is in my district and going to Boise as well, her name is Sister Farley. You heard a little bit about her last week, but I seriously love her to death!!! We just get along so well and we can just goof off(like at night or at dinner). She is a convert of 2 years and is amazing! We are both hoping to hopefully be companions when we are in the mission field together. This week with my companion has been a little rough, I think that she is bipolar. One minute she will be all chatting and what not and the next she will just be mopey. She kind of gets snappy with everyone and wants lessons and everything done her way. She was "sick" this week, which our training sisters think it was a lie because she was just looking for an excuse to take a nap in the middle of the day. So it was frustrating at times when I had to mission out on certain things because we had to hang out at our residence (apartment). It is also a struggle for me to get her up in the morning or on time to anything. The Stake President knew everything that was going on this week and talked to me on Sunday. He said he really appreciates my patients that I have with her and I am not letting it effect my companionship, which let me tell you is hard. I broke down Monday night to the other two sisters going to Boise. We had taught Leah for the first time and it did not go well at all. There were parts that were good, but I felt like it was not all that great. So all us sisters were talking about it and she just blew up and just vented to me about being negative and what not. It has been super tough, after each lesson we teach she is always telling me what I am doing wrong because she knows how to do it since she was the ward mission leader back at home. The Lord has seriously blessed me with the patience and love I have for her. The other sisters tell me how they don't know how I do it and they don't think that they could be as patient and strong with her as I am, so that gives me a little comfort to know that.Okay enough venting on that. She is good, just really difficult at times. I have gotten to know our district pretty well and I gotten pretty close with another district going to Tempe, AZ. One of the Elders, Elder Johnson went to USU which I love, although they are all pretty much straight out of high school they are so awesome. There is one Elder from California, Elder Renindon who got baptized a year ago, and seriously you would of never guessed. He knows so much about the gospel and has such a strong testimony that I am usually going to him for advice or questions I have. It has been pretty good here and I am actually sad to go. It is weird to think that I am going to be in the mission field tomorrow. I am so excited, but still a little nervous at the same time.
The food here at the west MTC is pretty good, the only sad thing is, is that we get the same thing for breakfast and lunch EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! Donuts, muffins, and cereal for breakfast and sandwiches for lunch. That's why we try to come to the Main MTC on our P-days or whenever we can so we can get some variety in our life. They are opening up a cafeteria but it opens up on Wednesday, the day after we leave for Boise. It was weird at first to get use to have class in an apartment living room, but I am use to it now. I don't know what it is but our AC is broken in there so it always gets super hot and everyone that walks in tells us how it smells like wet dog....which it really does. But that is okay since tonight is my last night there. I got to see Megan I think 3 times which has been awesome. She is doing so well and I love her, her companion is awesome as well. I can't believe that she is already in the mission field. It really has gone by fast, but at the same time I have also felt like I have been here for a month. This past Wednesday I got to be a host for the new coming missionaries which was weird. I had only been there a week and I was suppose to tell all these missionaries things? We had about 100 different missionaries come in going to Florida, Arizona, California, or Montana. It brought back some memories see all this missionaries say goodbye to their families and the mothers beginning to cry.
Each day is packed with so many things to do that I am so exhausted by the end of the day. I am learning so much here and I can not believe that I am leaving to go out into the field in less than 24 hours. My teachers are super awesome and I feel like I am learning so much each and every day. Last week we had a TRC investigator, which just means there are actors that come in and they are either converts or actually non-members but you never know. We taught this lady named Leah who was an Evangelical Christian. The three sisters and I in our district taught her four lessons total. The first three were a struggle. We just could not see eye to eye with her. Whenever she had a question or anything we would try to show her a scripture from the bible and would just interrupt it totally differently. She also has anxiety so that was a little difficult to deal with. I just not finding what her needs were spiritually. We all had pretty much given up hope on her since we only had one lesson left with her and we hadn't gotten anywhere with her. I prayed so much during the day just to come to love her and be able to some how teach by the spirit. So when we got there we were making small talk and I felt like I needed to tell her why I choose to go on a mission and I thought that was random so I just disregarded it, but I felt that same impression again to talk about that. So finally I just did and I invited the other sisters to do the same, and honestly it invited the spirit so strongly to the rest of the lesson. I did find out until 10 minutes left in the lesson that she did not feel like she was loved from her father in heaven and our savior. We just bore our testimony's and putting little bits of information here and there. I seriously could see the change in her and I knew that she could feel the spirit. I felt like my heart was going to burst, from all the love I felt for this woman. We asked her to be baptized and she sat there for literally 45seconds thinking about it and I was praying so hard in my heart for her, i felt like this was a real situation to me. She shook her head no, which broke my heart, but it was such a testimony builder to me. Because that whole week I was feeling inadequate as a missionary because I wasn't able to help Leah out. I learned that this is where I am suppose to be and that I can teach by the spirit. But let me tell you, it is super hard to have the spirit for every lesson. If we would of had one or two more lessons with her I know she would of said yes. But honestly that doesn't matter, as long as I leave everything out on the table and try my best and know that I just have to leave it up to the Lord's hands. My companion and I were teaching someone different for the first time and we were not on the same page at all. I was talking about the atonement and then she went off about the three different glories and what not. I knew that we were not teaching anything valuable to this guy(who is a teacher here at the MTC). After wards he told us that the lesson we gave did nothing to help the investigator to come closer to Christ and I knew that.I definitely do not want that to happen again.
Overall things have been amazing here, I do miss all of you and everything, but sadly I am not really homesick. I usually don't think much of you all unless I get a letter or when I pray at night of course. Although many people have heard all about you and how much I love you all. I brag all the time about my nieces and nephews and the amazing family that I have. The MTC has changed me so much already, I can't even imagine what it is going to be like in the field. We fly out tomorrow at 9:30ish, so expect a phone call from me mom at about 730 to 930 utah time. I don't know how long I will have since there are going to be A LOT of missionaries trying to call home, but I will spot out some random spot in the airport for you. I love you all and I hope to hear from you next week!
Pray for the people in Spokane and Boise as well as Megan and I.Sorry I don't really have much to say, hopefully there will be more to talk about next week.
Love,
Sister Metcalf
P.S. Expect a call between 730 and 930am Utah Time
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